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are you tired (HT048)

by mourning dove

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once you are lost, you are never found. though it is always a summer evening, i cannot live in it or even think of a human, see myself in the mirror. i know you went to sleep in the woods, the only place you feel okay. if you have gone away once, you have gone away forever. when i see you at my door, i know you are someone else again. we spoke of many beautiful things, you asked if i had fallen in love and i said that i hadn’t but i appreciate this time for which we’ve known one other cannot last longer than the infinite hour before you are killed by the whole real being which knocks as i go to the basement to conjure eternity, to chase cats and become nothing so soon. grandfather takes so many videos of us for this reason now that he is gone, he walks forever.
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fire house 03:54
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i am sorry for frankly i had been walking through your mind which is graceless though i thought it kind- i wanted to help you here and here it is trespass and later i must take myself apart for being near the last few years has been many small deaths really i was not meant for people
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cannot believe i am a part of the world right now, in philadelphia in a heat to the next city and- more than that, devotion requires distant settings a beauty unknown in my own time writing it is to slow and articulate a thought it might be weeded for you a someone still better than the spoken the heat makes us all equal burqa-clad or businesswoman, man in wheelchair at street corner what is happening here- a beautiful man asked if i might hold his cigarette before disappearing forever i stole a picture of you you looked so sweet and holy my apologies
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to think the earth will outlive us on the hill where the sky opened, and we saw the infinite constellated darkness between us, futures never lived like a dream so big it couldn’t contain itself. it was only a small dream of mine while i am a small dream of the world. though the structures here have been taken out, there remain generators graffitied. to think not long ago we stood on the porch and watched strangers shiver. to lie on that hill- to see that purple distance, the horizon formed from a gradient of forest and the mountain is made of what is more blue. this earth here has been too many things. my limitation is that i only see its immensity when i look back to see your face looking up at the sky. though i could be that sky. i could be the black. a greenhouse has been newly erected at this site out of poles and white shadows- a lattice, a tarp, a webbed column for the mind to walk around. inside, to grow vegetables. to cultivate nothing as could be felt by you or me. some other thing will be made in the ruin of a thought or the aftermath of the greatest feeling i’ve known which is so small, small enough to contain everything.
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if time had settled bluer air in the summer evening i might- call this a place again enough to look out at the darker hill, that is, the one beyond this one and live like nothing, to be- at once, inside of the room, the creature with these illumined eyes that wrongs all of you, and outside, the ghost never meant to haunt any of you.

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photos.app.goo.gl/vguiDztpVwig9oxr6
youtu.be/CxuRBcmEh84
youtu.be/YDJh9xESJGE
some sound/moving image used for chloe piene's work/talk: youtu.be/w6YQth973uc youtu.be/CaqN0MhQ7vI
chloepiene.com


cheer up on "i might call this a place again"
cheerupmd420.bandcamp.com

moving image/sound used for Chloe Piene talk/work
youtu.be/w6YQth973uc
youtu.be/CaqN0MhQ7vI

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released November 27, 2020

Elena Botts: Words and music.

tape layout by nd dentico

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